Life goes on…

Real life change isn’t glamorous.
It isn’t sexy.
No one is writing a television show about it…unless you’re some famous person who has fallen off the wagon for the umpteenth time.
And even then, half of the audience is watching only to see you fail.

Ahh…”reality” television. That’s entertainment? Please.

I’ll admit, I haven’t watched television in over a year. I don’t miss it. Not at all. But that’s a whole other topic.

You are not going to see my life featured in a season of the Biggest Loser, or an episode of Extreme Home Makeover. I don’t have a trainer, a hair stylist, a makeup artist, and a budget.

Real change isn’t that easy.
It hurts. It seems impossible. It doesn’t have a fairytale ending and a gorgeous prince.
Wouldn’t that be nice? Probably not….I guarantee that prince cares more about his hair than my goals and aspirations anyway.

What’s this post about?

Some of you may have read on Facebook where I mentioned stepping away for a while. You also may have noticed that I’m “around,” just not actively posting. There’s a reason. I’m changing me. It has nothing to do with you, or anyone else. It is selfishly only about me. I mentioned in my last post a book I want to talk about…and I still do. As soon as I’m done working through my steps, I will. And this is all part of that.

I often gather ideas on long runs, recalling bits and pieces of podcasts I’ve heard and books I’ve read. Here’s my most recent insight:

Rewrite your story.
Write it from here, letting go of the parts of your past that don’t contribute to the story.
What would a person who lived the story you write, do?
Do it. Forget the rest.

So I’m writing. And doing. But the story is unfinished, and it makes me uneasy.

I’ve always thought if you feel a lot of resistance toward something, it’s worth exploring. Fear of something new is typically a sign of change that needs to happen. I’m not suggesting you run, headfirst, towards your fears. We’re afraid of bears for a reason. Bears will kill you. Maybe think about the source of that resistance. Walk cautiously towards it. Live in that awkward space until it feels less uncomfortable. Then move ahead.

Just try it…will you?